Saturday, April 11, 2009

What i was....

Everytime i come here i want to write something but then as soon as i start writing my thoughts get mixed and i forget what to write. Thats how i have become from someone who used to be very clear in his thinking.

Everytime i go out and hang with my friends they are feeling that i'm not involving so much in their conversation and making them bored. Thats how i become from someone who used to do all the noise and talking and cheering up people.

Everywhere i go i carry a bit of sadness with me. Thats how i become from being someone who used to carry an never ending smile on his face.

Everytime i sleep i sleep because of an headache or due to fatigue caused out of something. Thats how i become from someone who used to sleepy happily at nights.

Everytime i wake up i wake up at an odd time or due to the scolding of my parents. Thats how i become from being someone who used to get up whenever he wants.

Everytime i sleep some good old memories come to my mind making me nostalgic and insomniac. Thats how i become from someone who always enjoyed those moments.

Everytime i talk with someone there is a sense of fear in me of what that person is thinking of me and what wrong i may speak with him and whether that person knows what had happened to me. Thats how i become from being an honest man and having no fear.

They say that if you are an honest man you have nothing to be afraid of. I was an honest man and i'm an honest man now but no one still cares about that. That is what makes me afraid.

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