Life will never be the same

well finally the inevitable had happened. I was detained in the final sem of my engineering and as of now i dont want to go back to that place ever again.i think i came back forever. My parents at home have been mighty kind on me i should say. they are not showing a single feeling on their face. but i can understand how they might be feeling inside. they may be thinking that next sem i will go again and study and complete my engineering. but i dont want to go to that place where there is no one and i cant stand the pain again. i waited as long as i could in hope that those who hurt me will understand and come back to me but then they never did. i cant wait forever. and in order to forget the pain they have caused i also have decided to cut all the contacts and start a new life all over again.lot of people dont know that i will not talk with them. i have to sit and think what i want to do ahead in life. but one thing is sure whatever has happened it has changed many lives and the way they are lived. life will never be the same again.

HOW WORSE???

Have you ever asked yourself a conscious question of how worse your life can get? and i'm pretty sure that you can never get an exact answer for that. one can never imagine that. you will always fall short of the reality. i did the same mistake, but there was a chance that it could have been avoided had i read a few signs of mistrust. but then the problem is that i'm an optimist and can never think of things getting worse, i was always hopeful that things will get better. they never did. they got worse and worse and worse.
ever thought of a feeling when the persons you trust the most not trusting and you are for yourself alone sitting in a dark room and then wondering what to do with the tears of sorrow flowing down your cheeks ?? what answer can you give yourself?? what it feels like to lose lot of people because you have no other option than to just walk away for you dont want to hurt the people you like the most?? ever got a feeling when you dont know whom to trust and whom not to??
this is how bad my life is now and i never could imagine this nor did i see it coming. everything happened so fast i should say in two moments of emotional and mental unstability and then a few lives were changed forever atleast one was changed for sure.
this may not be the most worst thing that could happen but then this my answer to the question i posed myself.

My experiences in life are unique. I always get close but never ever able to get what i want. My love is one of them. From now on i will write here whenever i am free, i have a few questions to ask. i have my life story to tell. all this that i present here is true feeling that arises from my heart and is also accountable to people around me and their views about me. if in this regard i happen to hurt the feelings of any people i would like to extend my apologies to them for hurting them is not at all my intention. the only reason i write here is that i have no one to tell or i shall say i want no one close to me to know it. i feel that the readers take this in the right spirit. any comments and suggestions are always welcome.

life is jus beginning

today i sat infront of the computer hopelessly and wondering what to do. but then i found hope waiting for me. from now on i will never look back in life. i will always be ready for the things to come.life in the last 2 and a half months has shown me many things.now its my turn to give back my share. let me live the life. ready or not here i come.