HOPE

"Hope"
Its a funny four letter word and a funny feeling too. Sometimes it makes you feel that whatever you dream or expect will happen and makes you go through life, but sometimes it also makes you to go through pain too when your brain and the things around that are going indicate that its not what you think and perhaps what you visualise is wrong.

I'm lost in between those two feelings right now. Some part of me says that those people who left me will come back by understanding what they have done and the other says what if they dont realise their mistakes soon enough. Already the time has taken its toll on me. I have waited and finally got myself into a big pile of shit that no one wants to get into. Can i wait more? Or rather the question i have to ask myself is should i wait?

May be i think i should move on and go ahead with my life. May be some things better are waiting. A better love may be on its way. Better relationships and more good people are waiting to meet me. I have to move on in my journey. I have waited enough.And in case i have to come back i dont have any problem for i know the path and i can retrace it. I have to move on and continue to do what i'm best in, making others happy. I have gained an experience in my life and with this i can probabaly help a lot of others who may get into the same shit as me if i stop here. On the other hand the things that i want to do are also waiting. I have to acheive what i want to achieve. May be that might prove an eye opener to all these people. I know that i have accepted my mistakes and gave my best too. I have been as honest as possible and if ever i lied sometimes it was always in the best interests of the relationships i care about and nothing personal. I believe in myself and the principles i choose to live with. They will never let me down. I will move on. I hope that one day i will see what i visualise to see. I have to make history. I have to write my own story that the whole world likes to read.

"Hope"
It might be a funny four letter word but it has some magic in it which makes everything possible.