my first love

well for days i have been thinking of blogging but it was my love that brought me here.My first love and i hope my only love for i dont want to love anyone else than jus her.But she choosed not to accept me and leave me for ever.we used to be good friends once and i thought that she'll love me too and proposed to her but she didnt like it.She said that she doesn't like love and left me forever.But i still continue to love her and will love her till my last breath after all she is my first love. how can i forget her?? she may not be as beautiful as everyone wishes but then beauty for me is temporary. she has that charm with her which is permanent.i cannot forget how she inspired me during my tough times.she'll be one of the reasons if i achieve something in my life.i can never forget the care she took to wake me up whenever i wanted.but when i asked her to be with me and wake up everyday single day of my life she left me.i still dont know why she left me but i feel she loves me too.there is something which is stopping her which i don't know.i know however hard she may try to forget me she cant for i've etched my footprints so hard that she cant even chisel away them.they are there forever they will be.today i'm not sad that my love has left me but i'm happy that she wants to choose someone better than me.i sincerely hope she does for i always want her to make the best choice possible.whether she will forget me or not but i can never.her smiling face will always be there in front of my very eyes.her lovely voice will ring in my ears.for now i feel that she has made the best choice she can make for i can never know why she choose not to choose me.i believe that there is always why things happen.probably it might be true as she used to say that i deserve more than her and i deserve someone better than her. but at any point in my life i'll be ready to accept her if she likes to.she'll be my one and only love.i jus wish her all the good luck in her life.with her i had a very nice time and those memories will keep me going in my life.well as of now my wait for my dream girl continues.