The days went by without me noticing...Life has been good and bad and all that it can be...I made friends...I had fun..its been months since that painful disaster....the wounds are still fresh when i think of them..yet i somehow spent time so that iam not reminded of it....there are moments when i felt iam in total control...yet there is a unknown doubt that lingers in my mind...I have learnt a lot all through these months...ofcourse the evil inside of me had its time as well...but i have been trying to cut down on the evil part...i moved on with my life in these months....preaching people where i have failed...a few had become close to me...i have seen the best, the cunning, the cruel and all other aspects of people....still i need to learn more....i write in confusing words that not many seem to comprehend but then iam that confused that i dont know what iam writing...all i know is write...which is what i want to do....

In a few moments of madness my life got frozen....that is all i remember ....may be i will remember this lesson for a long time in my life....the sine wave of hope continues to be there within me....making me to move on when it is at its crest and making me to stop and think when it is at its trough...

At this moment when iam about to go back to do the unfinished job....i somehow sense something bad...what is it..i dont know.....yet somehow...i have to do it....my patience iam beginning to lose it all again...yet it is stronger than ever....i jus hope that i dont make the same mistake again...